Hearts so pure in this broken place.

I run to you

2012-02-08T14:39:00.001+08:00

Inseparable.

2012-02-05T20:35:00.001+08:00

I don't need anybody who doesn't need me.

Tomorrow's like the finale. Though I only mugged for 5 days, I'm gonna make the best out of the papers!

Something that cracked me up:

I keep hittin' repe-pe-peat

2012-02-01T15:17:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday, we gave Cassandra a birthday surprise @ Aloha Cameron!

Really wasn't easy getting all the things we need and coordinating with Amber and her TP friends when we barely know each other irl.

We were all feeling so grouchy and bitter but after the party unofficially began our mood started to lift. All in all, it turned out great! :)

My favourite :)

Birthday girl mah babygurlllllll~

Helen looked stunning that day! :)

Ohoh right before taking this photo, we were playing heartattack and the bed suddenly broke!

And another funny incident was when me and twins went to the toilet... I think somebody was telling us about some ghostly encounters previously so we were all sort of on our toes. So, when we were getting to the door of the toilet somebody suddenly opened it from inside and we started screaming and running back to the living room. Super epic I even dropped my phone hahahahhahahaha.

Organizer I got Aileen to buy for me! Cute right?!

But I'm giving it to my sister because it's too small for me :(

Baked by Helena, yummyyyy ^^

100% accurate reflection of my feelings after being tagged on Facebook :

1.5 more hours left to study before I head out, k bye :(

Sparks fly

2012-01-29T04:56:00.001+08:00

Just got back from JB with tbe, ssm, jh and ry. Ended my already-happy Saturday well! I'll blog about the earlier part soon. Loved the lok lok feast, the only thing is that I've to try super hard to ignore how unhygienic it is. :(

Ok seriously dead beat right now just waiting for the boy to finish bathing. Guess tonight is the last fun night out without worries, cant wait for the 10th of Februaryyyy.

xx,

2012-01-28T17:12:00.001+08:00

I realized that you can't really be fucked by shit others do if that person means nthg to you.

Love lockdown

2012-01-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

Some random photos to share. I wanna sleep right now but I don't dare to tell Alfred on the whatsapp group chat because he's damn engrossed in telling me about how he met this pretty girl... .. .

Anyhow. Today was a joke! Tingxun overslept so the both of us skipped 3 hours of lesson. However, we decided to go for the one hour finance lecture. After leaving my house I realized I wore my shirt inside out (happened soooo many times alr!!! Ugh), was forced to wear my black cardigan under the hot sun >:(
Took 88, met that girl, waited for 72 but it took forever to come. And we decided to just head home. -___-

K shall go back to whatsapp and try giving smart advices. Goodnight!

2012-01-26T13:53:00.001+08:00

"Don't ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance, or my kindness for weakness."

Some more

2012-01-24T20:09:00.001+08:00

Photos that I missed out~~~

2012-01-23T21:24:00.002+08:00

Attica last night with Tt and a bunch of people but I can't remember their names. Boring night but good time spent with that girl ^^

2012-01-21T03:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I chanced upon this on Facebook:

http://blog.asiantown.net/-/10702/Chinese_girl_turns_herself_into_13_different_girls_after_makeup

I'm guessing that it's already quite famous but that doesn't make it any less shocking. I always wonder, is it a good thing to look really different in make-up? It goes to show that you can look alot better if you want to, makes you feel better about yourself, but that hides who you really are, isn't it? The worst thing is to have a girl so dependent on such products that she can no longer live without, and she starts to base her self-esteem on them..
Quite a handful of people have told me that I look pale/tired when I don't have any make-up on. (my basics is just eyeliner. A level up will be eyeliner, blusher and lipstick.) I don't deny that I tend to feel a little self-conscious when I go out with my face bare, and I'm really afraid I'll one day be too reliant on cosmetics too :( Butttt at the very least I know even if that day comes, i will still be recognizable when I've nothing on my face! This is the only way I can think of to console myself hahaha.

And! Photos from the article! I don't know if it will be too tiny cuz I'm blogging from my phone :)

2012-01-17T00:17:00.005+08:00

If you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3, 5 and 7.

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It’s not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won’t be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people’s problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships – even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss… You were born to enjoy! You don’t care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world’s wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5.

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone’s joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5.

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it’s still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

---------

(Found this on Kaykay's blog)

Mine is Number 8 whereas Boey's one is Number 2. His is quite true whereas when I read mine, I totally went "whaaat -.-". The whole paragraph makes me sound super suay! What's with meeting poisonous animals hahahaha. Our numbers don't match boo :(

Whisper my own love songs

2012-01-16T00:02:00.005+08:00

I ought to be happy because I finally satisfied my cravings for Bakuteh (and all those dishes that come along with it) today!

But why why whyyyyy, what made me so grumpy?

Maybe the crowd at Chinatown. But everybody got on my nerves so easily.

When I'm moody I tend to pick on little things around me. Sometimes, I start to think about all the negative sides of people and my relationship.

Phoned Boey (haha) and was expecting myself to pick a fight with him, but after hearing his voice I suddenly felt like nothing should matter. No relationships can be perfect, so why do I need so many things to go my way when I've already got him? Isn't having him more than I can ask for? Sides, I was just bothered by insignificant stuffs (about our r/s) and wanted to whine over the phone.

Yeah and I started feeling guilty for being so lame.

Okay so I downloaded path more than a week ago and I can conclude that it's a pretty silly app with awesome camera. :)

Here!

Taken today.

Double-chin couple:

Xoxo!

Shall sleep tonight feeling blessed ^^

2012-01-14T14:13:00.002+08:00

Haven't heard a voice like that on X factor. It's not dynamic like Leona Lewis but it's powerful like no other.
Now I can't stop youtubing videos of her.

Matters of the heart

2012-01-12T17:58:00.003+08:00

It's sometimes quite frustrating when my priorities in life aren't what they are supposed to be. I can give up so much for love and this is just me. If only I'm more focused on studies, more determined to succeed, more passionate about things that can lead me somewhere. But I'm made this way and I guess nobody can hold it against me.

Oh no!

2012-01-09T22:39:00.001+08:00

I knew that something must be wrong when I'm all laid back during my 2 weeks of term break. I saw this coming, saw how I'll get a shock when school reopens and all the project deadlines/tests will overwhelm me.

Wednesday - Business Finance submission
Thursday - Business Law presentation
Friday - Efma test
Next Monday - MCR submission (completely undone)

Big bad exams coming in about 3 weeks' time.
Now that I've typed it all down... I'm scaring myself to no end.

It's a wonder

2012-01-08T23:55:00.003+08:00

When I was greedily gobbling down my noodles, my hair tied in a messy bun, I looked up with my mouth all oily and I couldn't believe I still saw love in your eyes. The same kind of love I see whenever I wake up next to you and my double-chin is visible, with eye shit and after the whole night of hogging onto your bolster, you can tell me honestly that you love me a little more everyday.

Fried noodles

2012-01-05T02:13:00.003+08:00

Fried noodles that me and and my boyf love to cook (AND EAT), it tastes how it tastes today through lots of trail and error. I believe that many have cooked it before but I'm still going to be thick-skinned and say it's our invention ^^v

It's actually really simple and takes only 30 minutes to be ready!

Ingredients : Crabstick, hotdog, minced meat, noodles, dark soya sauce, oil, sugar, light soya sauce.

Cut the crabsticks and hotdogs, fry the minced meat (if you want to, you can choose to season it first)

Heat up the crabsticks + hotdogs for abit.

And dish it!

Now, throw the noodles into the empty wok and cook for about 3 minutes. Finally, it's time to add everything into the pan! Be sure the pan has enough oil. I like to add lotssssssss of oil though I know it's not good for our health haha.
Add a handful of sugar, some dark soya sauce, and a few tablespoons of light soya sauce.

Can't say the exact amount because I don't know too, must go by hweelinggggggg~

And you're done! I find it super yummy and it tastes exactly like how a homecooked meal should :)

(Added too much dark soya sauce this time round, the noodles are supposed to be yellow!)

Really random post but I just felt like it. Hehe.

Will never be right without you

2012-01-02T05:23:00.003+08:00

Since I've got my laptop with me and my boyfriend is occupied with dota, this is the best way to kill some time. Explains why I'm here at 5:25am in the morning.

PLAY last thursday~

Pardon me for how messed up I look, I wasn't feeling well ok! But since I refrain from untagging hideous photos on Facebook 97% of the time, I don't see why I should avoid posting ugly photos on this space!

Can't really see my leggings in the previous pix but here it is! Dug it out from my wardrobe, thought I'll never get to wear it again hehe

So sucky to blog without mouse lah, shall try to make myself sleepy now!

Bye.

Sealing memories of this year with kisses

2011-12-31T00:07:00.008+08:00

I have no idea why everybody is so excited to countdown to the new year, it's true that we should expect better things in the years ahead but I'm someone who always looks back. I look back, I miss, and sometimes I resent. Entering a new year spells closure, which means I can no longer make things right in the wrong I've done. No choice but to leave them as memories.

However, I obviously can't stop time so I'm going to try listing down significant events that happened in 2011 :)

This year, my family crumbled. We fell really really hard, but we're on our way back up. This is the saddest and hardest part of 2011. Despite that, we grew much closer and I'm so proud of each and everyone of them. As usual, I fought with my sister countless of times but I'm still thankful for her, the closest person I have in my life. I can't help feeling like the distance between us is growing but I'm not afraid cuz I know our bond always pulls us back together no matter what.

In 2011, my relationship with Boen has strengthened alot. I guess it's the best year the both of us had together, it's not because we experienced more Ups than Downs, but because I feel that we have actually came to terms with the fact that our relationship is one of the most important things to us. Even when we're going through big fights, we try to place the situations above our emotions and the B word never come to our minds. It's the year I actually felt that we really grew, together, stopped reasoning why we're so stubborn but actually accepted the fact that we're born this way, started to treat one another like family. I used to feel guilty (I think the same goes for him) when I think that Boen is more important to me than friends are. But I don't see why I should be now, he has never left me in the good nor bad times, and he has seen my good and bad sides. All of them. We have been through the most together, he has definitely been the most selfless to me. Maybe this is also evidence of me growing.

I met QTpies! This also meant that school is so much better for me. I never really liked school but the 6 months in TEP with them was different. I was happy in school everyday. It's not just a school affair though, they're people I can sit at starbucks with for hours and still not run out of conversations. I'm willing to do alot to make sure nothing changes between us.

(This one very genuine) Felt unhappy with almost all my close friends at different points of time. Some I voiced out, others I kept it to myself.

Did not lose any friends close to my heart. ^^

Job-hopped quite abit. Currently jobless (haha).

My perspective of many things changed.

Became fatter, lost my clear complexion and it became a constant to possess a pimply forehead.

The things I always talked about doing before I turned 18 are mostly accomplished. Except for taking my license which I'll be getting next year. I hate it man, I've been avoiding it cuz I hate the stress that I'm going to be feeling. Arghhhh! :(

Year of break-ups.

My memory of this year has been clouded with happy ones, so I'll say 2011 has been good. Yay.

Happy New Year everyone!!! :-*
(Craving for some lipton tea really baaaaaad.)

International love

2011-12-28T20:41:00.006+08:00

David's 21st! Dinner @ Kiseki was on him :)

Happy (super belated) birthday!!! *buddy fist punch*

One of my favourite, some awesome shitxzxzxz

Yesterday, something happened and it made me dance for joy ^^

Suckers for love

2011-12-27T02:00:00.003+08:00

Gave this place a little makeover! :)

I was so bored with this space I didn't even feel like posting anything at all.

Cityplaza with Taffy, Agatha and Zhiting last Friday...

The place is actually full of treasures! But only for those who are willing to make the effort to shop meticulously and in detail hahaha. You have to search the racks thoroughly, walk seemingly in circles through rows of shops that look the same. But yeah, I thought that my buys were worth my effort :)

You girls are amazing to hang out with. But I have to say, what y'all mean to me goes beyond the fun companions you are. Even though I feel like everyone of you changed (who doesn't?), deep down I find myself hoping that this friendship will never sway. I don't know how much I mean to each one of you in the new situations we find ourselves in now, but I just wish that all 4 of us will always know our places in one anothers' hearts. With or without reminders.

Xoxo.

M u d d y

2011-12-26T22:46:00.001+08:00

Not a great fan of soft toys but Muddy is just too adorable! Yep he was already given a name on the tag that he arrived in :)

Christmas was filled with love!

Just a passing cloud

2011-12-17T15:40:00.001+08:00

Update: Dyed my hair reddish brown (turned out abit purplish), went down to the dental clinic to do my fillings and am going back again next month for polishing, sister is doing pedicure for me now, i think im jobless now haha, supposed to have T.G.I.F and Coldstone for dinner with Baby to celebrate our mthsary but he's tired so I think we're just heading to heartland areas. :)

And... HOLIDAYSSSS!!!

You set your heart on me

2011-12-15T18:19:00.004+08:00

Sick since last Saturday. It's uncommon for me to fall sick and even more rare for it to last.

I can't call it flu cuz it's something more, can't call it fever cuz it's not there yet.

My head hurts, nose is runny (or blocked), stomach hurts, throat feels super dry/painful and my lips keep cracking. It helps when I apply lipbalm but not for more than 30 minutes.
Everyday I believe it will all go away very soon but it took me so many days to finally feel better.

Took a nap at Baby's yesterday and it was horrible. Or should I say, the worst nap I've ever taken?

I had the urge to vomit so badly and I couldn't breathe properly. You know the feeling you get when you can't breathe with your nose cuz it's blocked and you rely on your mouth to do it, but your throat seems to be blocked by phlegm...? Yeah I had that and my body was aching. I can't remember but I think I had nightmares to top it off.

You'll ask why didn't I just get out of sleep, I can't answer that question I guess I was just too tired. Didn't even have the strength to wake him up for help :(

Fanciful

2011-12-13T01:24:00.003+08:00

Rebel on one of the Wednesdays in November in my favorite dress :)

Like falling stars

2011-12-05T22:17:00.005+08:00

#randomphotos

Town then Demsey for Ah pui & Jamie's post-solemization party (Oh yes will blog about their ROM party soon!!! Sweeeeet!)

Back for town for Already Famous.

A shot with all our photos on his wall, there are holes cuz some of them came off, the tape wasn't sticky enough :( But ytd we stuck everything back up again!

Waiting for them to rokok zzzzzzz, went PlayNation at Princep street.

Freaking ex yknow, each of us paid over $30 for 4 hours? We'll only have to pay $15 at Pitstop?! Not worth!

Quite annoyed with their "policy", they said it's not their usual practice to remind us that our time is up so they'll just assume that we wanna extend... But at the start we told them we only wanted an hour of extension, not two. So obviously they should at least ask for our permission before they key it into our bill right. Aiya just damn annoyed with the way their inflexibility and it feels like they just wanna cheat our money.

Okay, so what have I been busy with?

Tests, work, tests!

I'm usually not home on weekends so I always try to study on weekdays after school. One day in a week, I'll work. But it's never enough! I always regret not working more whenever I get my pay :( I use my pay for my shopping expenses (yup my mum doesn't pay for those) I'll only take extra $$ if I'm really struggling with my allowance lasting me through the week.

And lately, even though I've been taking more money from my parents, I still feel damn broke. What's happeninggggggg!

Me and my boyfriend, we are always holding on to the belief that everything will change (for the better) soon. We're always making great plans for the future, when we'll finally have more time for each other, when we have the ability to spend freely, and when we're grown ups and can really, really make decisions. Yes the thought of these excites me, but deep down I know I wouldn't want us any other way. If we're made of money, we wouldn't be how we're like now. It's a different kind of feeling, a different kind of closeness to have no money and to share everything you have. Something not everybody understands. I'll say that we're happier than most couples who doesn't lack anything on the material side. That's about money. And for freedom, it's a different kind of carefree when we're young, even though we can't make decisions 100%. It's like zero to hero. And I rather grow with him from that, than hero to hero. If we have everything we want, we can't hope. We can't have dreams about a future that seems to be a whole new different world. And I love to have dreams, I love to talk about them. But on the other hand, he loves it just as much but he doesn't like to talk about them publicly, that is why whenever I tweet about such things he'll reply me via text/phone -_- which also reminds me, I should stop before I share too much here.

I think the whole chunk will come across as something retarded to y'all ):

Sometimes I find it difficult to express how I truly feel sigh~~

SO TRUE!!!

2011-11-29T23:36:00.001+08:00

(found this on TT's profile)

Above the influence

2011-11-29T23:27:00.001+08:00

Bf: Never go out today?

Me: Nope, stay at home like a cute kittycat :>

Bf: You cute kitty?! Come on come on! Wake up your idea fei zhu. You will be disappointed when you look into the mirror and find a black pig w curly tail hahahaha!!

What... I was fishing for compliments and that's what I get! >:(

Many events but I'm just too lazy to blog about them, esp when I'm in the midst of tests. I can't find the time and can't see the point. Blogging can be quite meaningless sometimes.. :(

I've started on Gossip Girl season 5 FINALLY!!!!
:)

Accustomed

2011-11-22T23:48:00.001+08:00

Business finance ICA tomorrow, it's silly to feel stressed over a test that has a weightage of only 20%... But I cannot help it cuz its the first test I'm going to have in many months. Sad to think that TEP's over and it's back to books again. Ah well!

Today, I learnt that you must really hear both sides of the story..

Loving you is the only drug i need

2011-11-21T19:39:00.001+08:00

Last friday me and Tx:

2011-11-17T22:45:00.001+08:00

Bought new stickers yesterday! I was so fascinated with them but the guys kept asking me to put them away 0.0 And today while bathing, I caught my mum red handed for stealing my sticker! (1st photo)
Hahahaha

2011-11-16T00:16:00.001+08:00

Cant hold myself back from you

2011-11-14T07:56:00.001+08:00

My eyeliner was like an ahlian that day hahahah, had dinner with that boy, met his friends, shopped around, bought tickets for In Time and spent our remaining free hours at Acid Bar. Home at 5am, slept for only 4 hours the previous day and was up for 18 hours. Closed my eyes for just 10 secs and nothing could wake me up after. My Saturday for you!

Y u so cutesy

2011-11-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

Me: If you're a tree, you rather grow where?
Him: Think I grow at shady places
Him: At least not hot
(he thinks for awhile)
Him: But no sunlight cannot make food leh
Him: Will be very hungry
Me: Oh ya hor
-After 5 minutes-
Him: Then how?
Me: What thing how?
Him: Cannot grow at shady places already
Me: But if you're a tree you won't be afraid of the heat!
Him: Really meh?
Him: Very scary
Him: My leafs will drop. Then become brown color *sweating emoticon*

#thisisourkindofconversationdaily

I think i find it funny because i can totally imagine his face while saying these! Our conversations always brighten my days, even those that are nothing near serious haha

Rainy days

2011-11-08T23:29:00.001+08:00

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Nothing compares

2011-11-07T16:32:00.004+08:00

Sigh, I feel like I wasted my long weekend away.

In summary and not sequence:

Rebel with babygirl, 126 dimsum, caught 2359, went church, bought clothes.

I miss spending genuine time and crazy number of hours with you and I know that's not possible at the moment. Just need some getting used to, and hopefully it will all be over before we know it.

:: Cannot wait for the 25th! I'm giving all my luck to Rochy and Rachy, do me proud in the papers ok! See y'all really soon, hugxxx (^-^)

Wattpad

2011-11-05T18:24:00.001+08:00

I love Wattpad sooo much! It's the app that gets me through the most boring moments. Go download it quick if you haven't (provided that you love reading)! ^_^

What, you can't keep up?

2011-10-31T21:42:00.005+08:00

Over the weekend, I caught Footloose and it's almost as nice as Step Up!

The best thing about the movie is that it got me drooling throughout because of the main lead - Julianne Hough~

Hehe.

Super pretty with a hot body and dances soooo well!

Most hollywood stars are glamourous-pretty but there's something different about her.

Googled about her and I'm glad to say, she's only 23! I've had enough of going gaga over an actor/actress only to find out that he/she is so freaking old... Remember the period of time I was so crazy over "Wedding" and Ryu Shiwon? Later on, me and Tingxun googled and guess what we found:

"Born, October 6, 1972 (1972-10-06) (age 39)... Shiwon is a happily married man and is a father of a baby girl."

Wth right, seriously...

12:13am

2011-10-31T00:14:00.001+08:00

Just something random after chancing upon some tweets I posted weeks back: I get so annoyed when people command me! I can be helpful, but I will like for it to remain as me rendering help. Instead of feeling like I've the obligation to do that certain thing (when I don't). My parents always ask me to do things in a nice way even though those are things that I am supposed to do. So why should it be otherwise for things that I can choose not to help with.. That explains my tweet saying I can tolerate bad behavior more than bad attitude. ☹

Y(•_•)Y

2011-10-26T22:16:00.001+08:00

Happy Deepavali!
开心的你爸拔你 (your father slap you)

Quoted from Samuelkratos hehe

Jump then fall

2011-10-20T01:36:00.001+08:00

I honestly thought we wouldn't be able to connect anymore, after so much happened. But I'm really glad I'm wrong. Thank you for always being so real and allowing me to be. Xoxo.

Too deep to be just a mistake

2011-10-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

Hey love.. I never told anybody this. 4 years ago, I made a prayer asking God for somebody I can entrust my heart to. I was so tired of losing faith I wanted somebody who will love me just the same. Soon after, you came along. It's hard to believe you're not heaven sent, for me. Sometimes, it just feels so right with you. But there are also times whereby something seems amiss. This morning, I told you about the things I can't compromise on, trust me when I say I'm not asking you to make any sacrifices for me but I'm just afraid. I'm so fucking scared, that our differences will pull us apart one day. What you told me was so comforting, that there are really too much about each other that we love. Thanks for letting me know you'd overcome anything to be with me :') It makes me afraid thinking we'll both come to terms that there are no other options if one day we are to find out forever isn't possible for us, sweetheart :( Everything about you, makes me feel like you're my gift from God. So please, let me keep believing you'll stay. I hope with all my heart, just as you do, that baby you're the right one.

You still make my heart flutter.

Dont forget

2011-10-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

Yesterday the whole bunch of us headed to JB! Felt very safe because there were like 14 of us, and half of them are quite big. Hahahah.
Got there at around 130, had our lunch @ Sizzling Stone. Walked around for abit and cabbed over to Holiday Plaza! The guys went to do massage while we girls were lucky to find a manicure shop which offered good service plus the prices are rlly reasonable :> I did classic pedi + mani (posted pic of my mani). Couldn't find a nice restaurant and it was already running late so we just cabbed to San Lou! Was actually hoping we'd end up there heh. Ordered quite abit and the bill came up to only 208RM (for a table of 8). Back to Sg after dinner, went back to wash up + got changed and headed to Cathay for "What's your number"! Quite hilarious, although mostly adult jokes haha. Got home at 4am, the boy made light supper for us and we totally crashed.

Today was sushi day for us to celebrate our 40th mthsary since we can't meet tomorrow :)
Even though you annoy me so badly sometimes, i know this is love. For love is being able to be yourself (quoting What's your number), and there's nothing too silly I can't do infront of you :) For love is to always want to give your best because you know that's what the other party deserves. For love is to trust, to give, to receive, to compromise, to support, to do things out of your comfort zone GLADLY just because it makes the other happy. For so many reasons, I know I'm not too naive to be sure this is love.

♥☺♥☺♥☺

Let me let you

2011-10-13T00:59:00.001+08:00

Sunday! Went Church with the ugly sister and she met her friend after. So I joined Tbe, Liting, Samuel and Brandon for some dessert @ sgoon garden dessert bowl (only took photo of me and Bb's)~~ Went mustafa centre and had sweechoon for supper. Even though I had a small fight with that boy and he insisted that he wasn't in the wrong, I can still see him making changes and taking what I said to heart ☺

Met Bb, Brandon and Rochy for steamboat on Monday night and it was good though they refused to serve me my chicken wings ugh. Tuesday was town with my sister and we had Nihon Mura for lunch! No wonder I gained weight... :( work today was alright, glad i had Aileen throughout. The manager was.. disgusting.

Fall short of glory

2011-10-12T00:09:00.009+08:00

Whenever I see gorgeous looking girls, I tell myself that the world is fair. Other areas of their life must be very much more flawed than others. I'm still holding on to this belief, even though I'm more and more convinced that isn't the case, because the world is not that fair afterall. I may feel that I don't look good enough, but what about people who looks worse? People who are disabled? I'm very, very fortunate already. I'm able bodied. When we talk about a person's character, physical looks also suddenly seem unimportant. Do you know of somebody who doesn't look stunning but is beautiful to you because you know that person has a heart of gold? Well, I do. Of course, I know of people who are the exact opposite too.

Very often, I look at girls who look like barbie dolls, so flawless, and think, how are they really like, deep down? Do they also hide insecurities? Do their beauty fall short gradually to people who knows them well cuz their characters are detestable?

Anyhow, my Friday night was awesome time spent at my cousin's crib! One thing about that place, there's forever a crazy amount of liquor on the shelves. Stayed over, nights like that are well, unbeatable I'd say. :)

Saturday evening in town with my fattyboy! :)

Dinner at Go! Go! Curry, been wanting to bring him there since the first time I set foot in that place, I knew he's going to love the food! We shared the Grand Slam (Business Class), super bloateddddddd.

Spent some good twosome time together hehe.

Chilled at Raindrops Cafe @ Scape....

The both of us were suay to the freaking max that night. Killed our mood a little but not for long! Decided to head down to catch a movie with the rest :)

Yes we cabbed from Cineleisure to Cathay. I know... How can that be my idea -_-

Caught Real Steel which was really good! Happy because I can't even remember the last time I caught a good movie. If I'm not wrong, the previous 5 movies I've caught were either overrated or made for boys. Hmm.

Went home instead of sleeping over at his place, only to find that my sister wasn't even back yet. It's quite rare for her to still be out at 4am. Waited for her to be home before bathing because I was afraid :/

Sunday was pretty good too, will blog from my phone if I feel like it! Whoooop.

Work tomorrow, xx

2011-10-11T21:07:00.001+08:00

Just did my nails at Fep! Glitter French~
Ah fat can do a better job for me but oh well, no complains cuz it's dirt cheappppp :>

Think of you later

2011-10-07T17:22:00.003+08:00

My holiday has been mundane... I can't remember exactly how I spent the past week.

Try my best to recall:

Met Bby on Monday night, met him again on Wednesday before heading to Zouk with Regina and Roxanne (met many of their friends over there and also Cassandra), dinner with the girls in town yesterday. And tonight I'll be at my cousin's crib, it's been a long time since we met up!

Not in a good mood today, I'm affected easily, yup correct. Been feeling this shit since last night. I hate it the most when I can't even put my finger on what's making me so frustrated.

Oh and I've been having nightmares lately :(

Last night, I dreamt that Bby is my husband, no not blissful because that isn't the end of the story! He has another wife... If I'm not wrong, I'm the 'main spouse'. And the other girl is just a mistress. Haha ikr so lame...... But I was so sad in the dream! I don't hate the other girl, she's nice and she's actually just as upset as I am because she loves him alot too. Plus she's way prettier so it made me jealous and inferior. Woke up feeling exactly the same as how I felt in my dream. I kept falling asleep after I wake up, and each time I'll have a brand new nightmare. Sigh whaaaaaaaat's wroooooooong :(

Talking about dreams reminds me of something. Since young, I've always been afraid of sleeping. By that, I don't mean naps, I mean the kind of deep sleep you have at night. That's because when you sleep, you can't control when you want to wake up, can't see anything, can't control your movement, you practically don't feel anything! It just feels as though... you're dead. The thought of that actually freaks me out. So during those hours you're asleep, it's as if you simply vanish from Earth. The next moment you're in control again, the Sun's already up. Some nights I'll just lie on my bed feeling scared (not super scared, but just really uneasy thinking about it). But it's impossible to not sleep so I just gotta play games on my phone in hope I'll doze off...

One of the situations where I'll not be afraid of sleeping is when I stay over at my boyfriend's place. The fear would be inexistent and I've no idea why.

Don't be mistaken. I'm not afraid of death, because I know where I'm going after that. But I am afraid of the pain that comes before death kicks in, and I'm even more afraid of the people that I'll leave behind. Very often, I find myself wondering whose going to miss me if I'm gone one day. I know of a couple of friends who definitely will cry for me, but not sure about the rest at all. Even so, I know I'll miss them if I were to die before them (haha sounds funny because I'm still so young) though the feeling isn't mutual.

Nothing is fair afterall. I'm not being emotional la, I'm saying as a matter of fact.

2 random photos I took while waiting for bus home after PM presentation last week. Lol ok luvvvv~

This one's for you and me

2011-10-04T19:08:00.002+08:00

My bestfriend and I, we're unlike any other. We grew up together, we have so much influence over one another that we needn't always say how we feel before knowing whats on the other party's mind. I'm most thankful for her, who always thinks the same way as I do. She's definitely the one friend who knows me the best :) I'll never turn my back against you, because I don't know where I'll be without you hehe ♥☺

Love youuuuuuuuuu!

"When goodbyes were only until tomorrow"

2011-10-04T01:17:00.005+08:00

Last Thursday, was my last day at Filmgarde. Everybody say whaaaaaaaaaaat. When I thought that's the beginning of a new career, it's actually heading towards the end. Ikr! The company doesn't want to engage with my agency anymore, sigh :(

So sad you know... The last few days I worked actually convinced me more and more that it's the best job I ever had. Sigh, hate this, hate goodbyes, hate the fact that I'm actually so happy working there. I'm always smiling (not in the retarded way).

I'll miss watching popcorns pop, miss the people and the place.

I found this cool:

Had quite an eventful weekend, starting off my Friday night at Ssm's 21st chalet. Will blog about it once the peektures are up on Fb~

Saturday night!

Caught 1911 at Cathay (Was alright, will be better if I understood the movie more), had supper at Jalan Basar.

Sunday, went 3rd, had Just Acia for lunch, went Kgarden, had supper at Swee Choon and got home at 2am. Not bad for a Sunday night! :)

Spent 56 consecutive hours together :>

Every piece of you

2011-10-03T03:38:00.001+08:00

Have I ever mentioned that one of the things I hate to the core is to feel ignored? I really can't stand it when people take my words lightly, or when they just brush me off when I make a point. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely okay with jokes, I don't remember ever getting angry when friends joke with me but it just annoys me so badly when people make me feel redundant... That is why I try my best not to make others feel this way. I acknowledge (not agree!) whatever others say -including those people who hardly make any sense- and I say hi when I see people I know, even in the midst of a crowd. I think that's something nobody doesn't deserve.

Just saying, irrelevant to any happenings today.

Btw I've some pictures from cycling with mah boiiiii last weekend! :)

~

☺☺☺

2011-09-26T00:38:00.001+08:00

Last night you hugged me out of nowhere and told me I'm your angel, I kept quiet but I wanted to tell you, you have always been my guardian angel too. ☺

Beautiful like the Rainbow

2011-09-23T13:55:00.004+08:00

Last night, Boy told me he just added 1800 new songs in the ipod and I replied "Walao you got laptop, ipod and blackberry so shiok" (his ipod is mine but I lent it to him because his blackberry doesn't contain any songs.

And he said "you got laptop and iphone what", I told him my laptop is spoilt and he said I always spoil my things. It's true... I spoilt my laptop by dropping it, my iphone speaker was spoilt (i think it recovered though) because I bathed with music on and splashed lots of water on it, spoilt his blackberry speaker because the mercy chocolate in my bag melted and it was all over his phone... :'(

Ok so, last Sunday Tt's 18th birthday party @ Studio M Hotel!

Very nice hotel, abit small but it's cozy!

Took this photo while there's still pizza in my mouth. Oppsy heh

We got her $84 worth of F21 vouchers because I guess that's one of the best things you can buy for a girl when you can't think of what she needs. Shopping can never be too much!

And Zouk with the girls on Wednesday, quite a fun night. Suprisingly, I'm starting to like crowds.

(I look like I'm wearing the same outfit on both days in the photos right?! But it's damn different irl!)

Bumped into Jiahao there and he sent me back home after, had quite a hearty chat on the car :)

Been cranky for the past few days, can't believe a little distance will do this to me. Sigh. But glad it's a Friday already :') Working tonight and I doubt I'm going to deliver my promise. But yes I did consider. Will see how things go~ Blog about it soon.

A part of Forever

2011-09-19T00:57:00.005+08:00

They always say, everything's gonna stop being a breeze once the "Honeymoon period" is over. And I do believe in that theory in relationships, but the weird thing is, it's not happening to me. The only change I can feel is that we know each other so much better and we're both so much closer emotionally, we hardly even fight anymore. Which makes it even sweeter than the initial honeymoon. I think quarrels are good, for more than one reason, and I'm secretly glad when we have arguments... Haha this sounds so stupid but of course I don't like it when it happens too often! I think our frequency is perfect :) It's not about me being anything so great to deserve something so amazing, I think I'm simply lucky enough to find him. I wish our honeymoon will go on, and on, and on, forever :)

Sorry was triggered to blog about such a mushy post because he told me he thinks we're as loving as a new couple. That made me think. Hehe.

By the wayyyyy, Saturday was Val's birthday! Had a simple birthday lunch at Nihon Mura, surprised her with a cake from the back (as usual) and I think I heard everybody in the restaurant singing the birthday song along with us. Haha. Chilled at Red Mango @ Scape and cabbed to Baby's place.

Photos~

Birthday girl!

And one ah lian photo for you hahaha

Sunday night was Tt's birthday party (next post!), this week is packed with events too. Very busy with work, projects and meet ups. I've been neglecting my bf because of friends, k I will take note that he needs my time too.

2011-09-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to be in town with my boy but he fell sick so here I am, while he's snoozing away. Today I'm the best I can get, being the most caring girlfriend ever. Showing up in his room when he's asleep, going down to the vending machine to get him a drink/snack because he wanted to drink something sweet, getting him his medicine and putting a wet towel on his forehead, bringing him to the toilet whenever he needs to, running little errands for him here and there, and cooking him dinner. Though it's just noodles + hotdog + crabmeat, it's still impressive because I don't get to cook at home since I'm the youngest. I realised it's the first time I ever cooked anything for him. He's always the one whipping meals up for me. I am super fail :(

And now I don't know if I should go home or stay here for the night. I'll be so bored if I were to stay but if I were to leave nobody will be here to take care of him. (v.v)"

Impossible to find

2011-09-13T09:56:00.005+08:00

Yooooohooooo, I was saying I'm going to have a very exciting weekend right?

Here goes! :)

Me and Baby got home late on Friday night and turned in only around 5am, woke up at 7am the next day. Shag max but it's all worth ittttttt!

Cabbed over the Changi Ferry Terminal and took the morning ferry over to 四弯岛!

On the car to his Grandma's apartment. The apartment is sooooooo huge! It has a total of 4 levels, 15 rooms, 3 living rooms and 3 kitchens.

But the best part isn't the house, it's the FOOD!

Dinner @ a seafood restuarant

Butter sotong

Salted egg chicken. Tasted like peanut butter!

Hotplate oyster egg. Everybody's favourite!! The baby oysters are to die for...

+ Chilli kangkong hiding at the back

I like how the whole village feels. Whenever we're travelling, I can expect to see cows/cattles/chickens/monkeys along the way. And you'll always always bump into friends, it's almost like the whole town knows one another and I like that. The only bad point is that it's impossible to survive without a car, no matter where you want to go, it's not within walking distance. So yeap I'm very thankful for his cousins for always ferrying us around :)

In the hungry shirt Rochy gave! Supposed to wear it as pyjamas but ended up heading out with it. That's how relaccccc we are hehe

Supperrrr!

The bandung/teh ice there is so awesome seriously. Singapore's is so sucky compared to it.

During the trip I felt very cheated because Baby told me I should just bring tshirts for the trip. But he didn't tell me we'll be going for a ROM chalet! I felt super under dressed but luckily we didn't stay for long.

Overnight mj and the both of us fell asleep while chatting ♥

Had a super sumptuous lunch (I think we had 15 dishes?) before taking the ferry back to the tiny island.

Sadly the trip was only 2d1n :(

Nose to nose

2011-09-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

Harrlowwwww! ^-^ These are the things I've been up to lately. Started working at Filmgarde @ Illuma! I kind of like it there even though I can't sit (and my friends all know that I hate standing, I always rush for sits on the train/bus), I like what I'm doing and the people. Plus the pay is relatively good too! I mean, yeah, my previous telemarketing job paid me $8/hour which is higher but I left because I didn't like what I was doing. Before Filmguarde, I also tried working at Yoguru which is $5/hour but quit after a day because I didn't like the people... Sidetrack: Before I went for Yoguru's training, I googled "Yoguru girls" to make sure their staffs aren't pretty because I have this mindset that if the shop's infested with pretty girls I can't survive. Bitchy + superficial. I don't know how true, but it's just my POV!! And the moment I stepped into the shop, I was quite sian because it's completely opposite of what I googled >:( So yes, true enough, I didn't like it there especially the manager who talked to me like I'm her dog. Hahahhah k, the entire point is, Filmguarde has a nice jobscope and nice people - or at least the people I've already met. I hope it's safe to say I'll be staying for long~ Second most major thing is that I UPGRADED MY LIFT IN TINY TOWER!!!! Oh man I almost died trying to save the bux. The speed now is seriously not like what I imagined it will be. Hehe gayyyy And the final update is that I'm invading my boyfriend's new laptop now hehhh. Very exciting weekend ahead, will blog about it soon! :) This is his current wallpaper........................... :>

Trivial

2011-09-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

A few days ago, my laptop dropped and the next time I switched it on, the graphics went insane. Now and constantly, there are white lines across the screen, flickering. Other areas are functional and I can still use my laptop but seeing the screen like this annoys me so much.

What can be worse right... Yes, there's a more sucky news. The IT fair just ended and the next one will prolly arrive in 3 months' time!! How timely. Ahhhh noooooooo.

I really don't know what to do, send it for repair? But everybody agrees that the money you pay for fixing your laptop will be more well-spent if you get a new one.

Stick with this for a few more months before getting a new one? It's frustrating to face this current one, and what do I do with this after I lay my hands on the new laptop? It's still fully functional afterall. Moreover, my brother's about to move his desktop over because he just bought a new laptop recently.

Small issue you may say. But I'm so bothered, I really love my ASUS netbook it's perfect for me :(

I refused to blog or tweet about the incident previously because I didn't want to accept the fact, but now.. Sigh :(

Bar bar black sheep

2011-09-06T09:17:00.003+08:00

So on Friday night me, my boyfriend and his bunch of friends headed over to boat quay for dinner!

@ Bar bar black sheep!

My Mushroom & Bacon Burger.

Down to Cine for movieeee. Caught Four Lions (super duper sucky)

Gongcha before movie! Had many hours to kill.

Heh he looks so cuddly :)

Saturday!

Town with sweetheart (:

Lunch @ Bachmann Jap Restaurant!

Food isn't too bad but the serving was wayyy too big!

Cheesecake Fantasy and Strawberry Banana. Was expecting it to be very sweet but turned out fine. Super yummy!!

Went down to Comex IT Fair at Suntec Convention and Swthrt got himself a new lappy. I wanna bring my Theme Hospital disc over to play over the weekends!

(Y)(Y)(Y)

Got my nails painted over the weekend hehe.

Loving you is mind-blowing and at the same time, comforting and reassuring. But it makes me afraid, that all I've to offer is too little compared to what you're giving to me. Too little for you to always want to stay

(From my twitter)

This time

2011-08-30T03:06:00.008+08:00

On Saturday night, I had one of my favorite and craziest nights with my two babies!

@ Groove.

I think this photo like damn action, but I really can't find proper photos already. I look like shit in majority of the photos......... yes because I was drunk half the night. Of course not dead drunk, I was aware of whatever I was doing! Felt so much better after I puked :(

Rebel/Zirca

Hehehe see her silly face!

All our drinks on the house yay ^_^

They're seriously so pretty! There are some rare occasions whereby I'll start comparing and I'll feel reallyyy ugly. But everytime it happens, mini bubbles will begin appearing in my mind, the things my boyfriend will say to me whenever I tell him how inferior I feel replays. And suddenly, I'll realise that everything I am is sufficient, because all I care about is what he thinks of me. Whenever pretty girls walk pass, he doesn't even steal glances. I'll point them out and say how pretty they are. He'll look and say "hmm, not bad"... "but you're prettier to me". Though I clearly am not, but I believe him. I believe that's what he thinks of me. Because I feel the same way about him, and as him. That loving somebody makes you think that all that they are is beautiful. The kind of beauty that cannot be replaced just by make-up, branded clothes or even charisma.

Sidetracked too much! K go back.

One of the only proper photos but I don't want to post the uncropped one because there are censored areas!

Did so many insane things that night, we totally ignored whatever people thought of us hahahah. Things I cannot do with anybody else, but them :')

Anyway, I'll never cheat on my boyfriend. I'll always ask myself if I can accept it if he does the same to me before I do whatever it is to him. So yeappp. I think cheaters are damn lame and stupid. Even if they don't get discovered, they're spoiling their r/s just for that bit of fun. There will always be that tinge of guilt and fear existing after they decide to misbehave. I don't even get it, very tempting to cheat meh...? Alright not going to start on this!

My hair is brown already, so fast!! :(

Blogging because I'm soooo bored in class! :(

2011-08-29T16:33:00.001+08:00

A couple of nights ago... Me: "Bee download Love you like a love song! I feel like listening." (He picked up his phone to download) 5 minutes later... Me: "Wey why you still playing with your phone?! Faster sleep!!!" Him: *-___-*

You cast a spell on me, spell on me

2011-08-23T23:12:00.003+08:00

So yesterday I decided to chop some of my hair off, and get my hair dyed (red). Oh I also threaded my brows but that's unimportant haha. My hair looks black in photos so I guess the change isn't too drastic.

The only photo that can see a little colour is this........ I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING AT THE PHOTO! I SENT IT TO MY BOYFRIEND AND WE LAUGHED TOGETHER. And you know what, I feel like yawning everytime I see this photo omg. Yawns are contagious through pictures too! (I wasn't faking the yawn, I really was yawning when I snapped!)

The colour looks damn uneven but it isn't like that IRL, thankfully. K so that's me without any make-up, in my pyjamas and double chin. :)

Can't stop blogging, this is what my holiday has turned me into. Yay picnic with the pies tomorrow it's gonna be funnn~

Any nice dramas to recommend?

QTpies

2011-08-23T13:15:00.003+08:00

I will really really miss you guys, thanks for being the best part of my tertiary life. Y'all make every single day fun and heartwarming for me, I can't say how glad I am to find all of you.

It's been months since my whatsapp is quiet hehe. Keep in touch hugxxxxxxx :)

Last Friday Night

2011-08-22T00:23:00.004+08:00

I thought it would be just a simple night out, chilling after dinner at beach road but I didn't know he made plans~

Dinner at some chinese restaurant, I think it's kinda pricey because the food is so-so only.

First time taking photo with bodak5 after he became The True Botak!

Kgarden

Headed to the usual SweeChoon, I think I can memorise half of the menu and my boyfriend can recite the entire menu already. Haha.

Za-jiang-mian! Very yummy $4.50 only and I heard it's better than Crystal Jade's!

One last pic! ---------------------

"Do hip-hop!" -snap-

And here is the ugly photo. Hahahah seriously he looks damn gay here and to be fair, I look just as ridiculous. -_-

Saturday was just me and him @ Town, hehe. It's quite hard to survive the rain when you're shopping in town because it's impossible not to get wet plus you'll normally be more dressed up right. But yeah, we made it! He bought clothes and I went home empty handed because I had $0 with me (I LOST MY WALLET THATS WHY I'VE NO ATM CARD, YES I LOST MY WALLET FOR LIKE THE 5TH/6TH TIME IN MY TEENAGE LIFE UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!). He wanted to pay for my Birkenstock but they don't have my size, and he insisted to get me a new wallet but thankfully the store doesn't sell the one I used to have anymore. I decided to punish myself by getting a wallet from Daiso! It makes me happy when he spend on me because it shows my value to him is greater than the amount... But I also hate it because sometimes he overdoes it. I just don't think it's right for any girl to expect a regular supply of gifts from her bf. And I'm not going anywhere near that.

The happiness that you provided me with is priceless already Beebee hehe :) :) :)

X0x0

You got my heartbeat runnin' away

2011-08-15T19:57:00.003+08:00

I've been bored with life, been in search of old songs, been spending a whole lot of time with my sister, been job hopping, been shopping too much, been attending little events here and there - which I cannot brush off because I looked forward to them before their arrival yet they are too insignificant to be blogged about now. Been feeling like friends come and go. I can totally handle it if those friends were friends I knew would leave one day. But, most of them aren't.

Photos from the weekend~

Coldstone!

Surprise from beloved :)

School's gna be out in a week, for a week. Not excited though I think I need the break.

Right there

2011-08-03T10:14:00.001+08:00

Not everybody stays in your life, no matter how close you've once been with them... Isn't that sad? Sometimes I feel stupid for missing people because it doesn't change anything and the feeling isn't even mutual.

My heart beats for you so listen close

2011-08-02T15:23:00.003+08:00

Helen baby's 18th

THIS ONE EPIC

Hahahahahah seriously tell me again why do I love them so?

This dress made me look so freaking fat zzz

All the girls hugxxx

Love infinity

To the 3 of you:

I'm really glad the sad & gloomy days are over now that the both of you found your better halves. Do y'all remember all the times we said we couldn't wait for Helen to turn 18? Now that it's finally here, the thrill has worn off, and it doesn't seem to matter so much anymore. In fact, spending genuine time together beats partying. No matter how it looks like on the surface, I'll always feel like we belong together. Like we'd run into one another's arms when we're torn. Do y'all feel the same way? I just wish for the 3 of you to choose whatever that makes you happy. Stay close babies ♥♥♥

Skyscraper

2011-07-28T22:03:00.006+08:00

I feel so sad that my brother's moving out tomorrow. Even though we're not super duper close like can hug together kind (the only time we do that is when we take photos, or when one of us is drunk), we really care for each other. And if anybody bullies me, he'll stand up for me. Yeah he's not going to be gone forever but it just feels really weird... For him to be staying elsewhere for the next 4 years. Even in his 2 years of army life, he gets to come home everyday. The only period of time whereby he was always missing was during his few months of BMT. I'm going to miss him, his presence at home, and all the night outs we have. :(

On a lighter note, here's my current favourite song.

(Video can't seem to load, so let's do it the manual way haha)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_8ydghbGSg

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

Maybe when you've touched the heavens, you'll no longer be happy with little. When you're unhappy, sad thoughts will just keep attacking your mind... Yknow that feeling? I can't answer what's upsetting me. Not that I don't want to, I simply can't. So frustrating because I've been feeling sad so easily and so much recently. I can't say there weren't happy moments at all, there were. Just that my mood plunges.

That is also why I'm trying so hard to be sure that... you're going to stay in my life. I used to think I'm too young to talk about forever too. Look at me now.

:'(

2011-07-27T21:59:00.002+08:00

Everybody should read this...

http://t.co/drvD6eN

It made me tear and I can't stop wondering how can anybody get so evil. Can money seriously exchange for a person's humanity? Doesn't their conscience eat up all their insides? Can they really go to bed every night in peace, knowing that they destroyed so many lives when they do not have any right to.. And that they're still causing so much pain that very moment. I always thought the most inhumane thing to do is skinning animals alive. Now, this beats every other kind of abuse I've seen. The pain doesn't go away after an hour or even a day, it lasts for 20-30 years, or their entire lifetime. Yes, it's more painful than death and guess what, they have NO WAY to kill themselves even. All they can do is to watch human beings make use of THEIR organs everyday helplessly. I thought not having freedom and being confined in a small cage is bad enough, well I'm wrong. What the fuck is up with these people, is the happiness money can buy greater than having a heart? Shameless monsters.

White musk

2011-07-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

Jiahao's Chalet :)

I loveeee how I smell today. White Musk, my fav fav fav perfume! I hardly use it because I've got only a small bottle. I don't think that Bodyshop still sells it, the last time I checked they changed the packaging, and the worst part is that it smells different as the one I have :(

The reason why I want to be home early everyday?

Wedding

Ryu Shiwon is so freaking cute in the drama! Trust me when I say, I don't feel anything when I see pictures/videos of him irrelevant to the drama. That's why I'm convinced that I'm only attracted to him in his character, not the one in reality :) I feel alive only at night because watching it makes me smile and cry like an idiot even though this is the second time I'm watching it. I used to be as crazy over it years back, and he's the only Korean I like ok!! All other bigbang/snsd etc doesn't interest me a single bit. Jang Nara is so pretty too! K getting all hyped up now I can't wait to get home (insert 30 hearts)!!

Actually I've got alot of things to do but I stubbornly want to blog first. Haha.

Your magic

2011-07-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

I'm in bed, nights with insomnia lets me think even better than in baths. It seems inevitable for me to think about the love showered on me by this special someone, yes, I'm so thankful. To be very honest, we weren't always this great. I used to cry, alot, because I was always feeling insecured, unsure and hopeless about us. I could be happy in the day but I'd be crying in the night - I know im sounding temperamental at best, I just hope I don't sound psychotic. I didn't let him know abt how I felt, I guess we just weren't close enough emotionally for me to feel like he'd understand, or care. Things changed, gradually. Now, I can't remember the last time I doubted his love for me. It's been a long time, maybe months, maybe a year or two. Yes, I can still be insecure but I always know how exclusive I am to him. This feeling is out of the world and I believe every girl deserves to feel this way :) Don't choose somebody who is willing to give you $100, choose somebody who is willing to do so when he has only $101. If things have to change one day, I pray for us to remain this perfect in our memories. I want to smile whenever I think of you, just like how your magic is working on me now. Goodnight, with much love. :)

Next to you

2011-07-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

You've got that smile

That only heaven can make

I'll pray to God everyday

That you keep that smile

Yeah, you're my dream

There's not a thing I won't do

I'll give up my life for you

Cause you're my dream

And, baby, everything I have is yours

Falling stars

2011-07-12T20:43:00.004+08:00

So moody and grumpy. School made me so unhappy today. Almost everything besides school isn't going well either. The only thing that cheered me up today is dinner, mum bought me mui fan. Comparing it with the horrible dinners I've been having for the last 2 days, that's worth a smile. Ok, dinner after blogging.

Last weekend :

Cousin outing got cancelled last minute, decided to bring my annoying sister (she calls me ugly sister all the time so I don't think she deserves a proper name too grrrr) along eith me to my boyfriend's house for Mahjong. Which also led to her presence in me and Baby's date on Saturday, haha.

K photos

Kiseki @ Heeren

So cute looks so princessy!

Or made for my prince ahahahahahahhahahah

My sister asked him "Why you keep drinking peach tea?" He answered "Peach tea leh!!! Book in everyday drink plain water" Hahahahah (He really drank alot)

Supposed to be our date one lor end up so many people came along :( hahaha

Bloated tummy > Pitstop Cafe

Spent half the Sunday with Baby and the other half with my family. :)

Uploaded the whole chunk of photos too hungry to choose oopsie dopsie mui fan WOOHOO~

High-strung

2011-07-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

At my Grandma's now, Ah gong's condition doesn't look so well. I don't really know how I feel, or even how I'm supposed to feel. I've never experienced death of people I'm close with. The only time I can recall was my uncle's. He was diagnosed with bone cancer when he was in his early 20s, passed away a few months after. When it happened, I was way too young to even feel sad.

On the other hand... I've been feeling like I'm caught in between, no matter what I do, which party I help, I don't feel right. I know secrets (really dark ones) of A, B's wrong interpretations, and how I shouldn't implicate C. There are just so much complications... The worst part isn't watching them all make the wrong decisions, but it's having to pretend that I don't know anything infront of them when I can clearly stop them from being foolish if I were to speak up. But I can't, I'm not supposed to. Don't guess, I'm not going to say a thing, no no. I CAN'T.

Okay at least my weekend isn't too bad :) Blog about it soon!

Outdoor Games

2011-07-07T12:39:00.003+08:00

When I was still attached to the Call Centre (which was also about a month back),

we had outdoor games!

Hate this game! Made our ankles sooo painful >:(

The games were honestly pretty horrible haha, plus the sun was super scorchinggg. But we had fun! And the team that came up with the games tried their best so we're grateful. Wish we had this more than once, or that it didn't happen during the 2nd last week of the stopover though!

I'm still on very good terms with the great friends I made in that stopover so everything's good :>

Alley Bar

2011-07-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

Last month

Freaking cheap shots!!!

One of the greatest things about being together with Tbe is that I got to meet them. Now our friendship isn't even reliant on any of the boys. I hope this stays because y'all are one of those people I really, really cherish :)

I love being with friends who loves me for the way I am, no matter how retarded I can be sometimes... I'm usually not close with those do not take me seriously, because that feeling sucks. Being fun & cracking jokes is different as brushing you off all the time.

Xoxo virtual group hug with the girls in this post hehe

What ifs

2011-07-05T23:05:00.001+08:00

Life is unpredictable, dangerous, and nothing is definite nor infinite. What if i was born extremely poor, what if i sucked so much at studying, what if I didn't meet my bestfriend 7 years ago, what if I decided to be rebellious years back and screwed my life up, what if you didn't decide that we could be more than friends and took that shot of confession, what if you've been cheating on me all along... What if the never-ending possibilities keep clouding my mind.. Millions of things could have turned out another way, and my life will be so different. But everything fell in place, and here I am, being who I am. Maybe I'll be better off, maybe not. Life may be better if I had more money, or maybe it'll just make me feel more empty. Maybe i'll be happier if I'm prettier, or maybe it'll just make me feel inferior as I start comparing myself with others.Random thought, redundant post. I'm just bored listening to my sister's life story while she's bathing.. Haha.

Loverboy

2011-07-01T14:40:00.002+08:00

It has always been about me. I remember there was once you took a bite from my pork pao and guess what was my immediate reaction? "You ate the egg!??!!". You didn't, and I felt bad right after because I recalled the thousands of times you gave me the nicest part of your food. You'd insist I eat the egg in your pao w/o me even asking for it. You've been so giving towards me, in almost every way imaginable. What everybody knows about us is only less than 40% of what we have. I know it best, that's exactly why I'm not letting something this precious go away. Ever :)

Not sure what to pray

2011-06-29T00:05:00.001+08:00

Happy/sad I can't even make up how I'm feeling guess my brain hasn't quite registered everything. Is it possible, for love to be stronger but actions to be weaker as compared to the time when love wasn't as strong?

Walking on sunshine

2011-06-27T16:09:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Chucky!

With lots of love.

Dinner @ Fish & Co, the glass house. Known for it's ambience but I found the liveband distracting!

I always think that noisy places are for couples who doesn't talk much, so at least their silence will be filled and it will be less awkward for them. Hahaha.

They always say we're super suitable to be friends because we have the most rubbish to say HAHA

Chilled at Frolick with that bunch till late, talked about Ex-es but I didn't have much to say because I don't really consider mine as a real relationship anyway. All I said was how much I wish he'd go to hell. Lol, the only one in the whole world I wish for that.

Headed to Yt's place for mahjong mahjong mahjong :)

That was Friday! Saturday was spent at Ah Bui's birthday BBQ. Watched the boys play soccer after that, quite entertaining but the only uncomfortable part was when Alfred decided to play in his undies. ><

Sunday, Jiahao's Chalet! I think it will be fun if I could stayover, ugh school.

That's all! Weekends filled with birthday celebrations. Yahoo.

Stinky

2011-06-24T15:03:00.001+08:00

What's with smelly people? So inconsiderate! I'm not talking about the inevitable kind of smelly - like after a jog it's normal to reek of sweat, right? That's also not okay actually but at least more acceptable. I'm talking about the kind of smelly that can be avoided if they were to bathe/use deodorant before leaving the house. Ugh. Tonight is going to be fun! Although I'll not be seeing Tbe :( k gonna take a power nap before heading out, I've a long day ahead! Have an awesome Friday everybody! xoxo

Brownies for you?

2011-06-23T18:59:00.002+08:00

I wish I don't get jealous this easily. I wish I'm a better person.

Not gonna cut it

2011-06-22T19:01:00.001+08:00

Blogging from my phone... I'm so hungry and drained. This bus ride feels like its taking forever. I want to alight so much cause I know my hamsum boi will be at the bus stop waiting for me.Everyday has been so tiring and it scares me so bad how am I going to cope with all the workload for the next 2 months. The stress level is insane, somehow little mistakes always seem to be magnified.. Sigh. I better get an A for this stopover, seriously!! My qt girls make my day so much better, I swear. Even though I end almost an hour later than them, they will still wait for me. It makes me feel freaking bad but no matter how I chase them home they'll wait. Not because they're afraid I'll think they're mean but because they genuinely want to walk to the train station with me. It's a small gesture but it makes me so happy. By far, almost everything I've experienced in poly is based on self interests. There's suddenly so much love now it's overwhelming :')

Glitz

2011-06-20T00:07:00.003+08:00

Alright! So there wasn't any proper celebration for our 3rd Anniversary. It's one of those times I didn't see the need for anything crazy in order to spend the day splendid. :)

Had dinner with my classmates before meeting Tbe and the rest for Green Lantern (sucks)! Had Swee Choon dimsum @ 3am (supper or breakfast?).

I remember the awesome sleep I had that night that made up for the 5 weekday mornings I woke up at 8am!

Saturday afternoon was full of tears, we had a big fight. One we didn't have in so many months, but we were good by evening. So much feelings involved, not sure if we became stronger but I know better my trust is well placed. Now all I'm left with are mixed feelings, not about him/us but about myself. Ok, I don't wanna talk about it. Anyhow, we ended up leaving house late.

Dinner @ Swensons. Gave all the buffets we had in mind a miss since he's still a vegetarian for now!

Hahahahhaha

(I can't get over all the silly things we always do together. Haha.)

He waited as I shopped. I think it's really sweet when a boy accompanies his girlfriend to shop. But it's even sweeter when the boy does so despite hating to shop :>

Sunday! Went Hougang Mall to fix my Ezlink which was spoilt without a rhyme or reason. So lame right. Had lunch and went back to his crib for Mahjong~
I'm finally back to my own home now and we spent a total of 48 hours together :)

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I always think that I'll be able to find someone like you, be with him, have what we have now, and feel the same way we do for each other, but deep down I know I'll probably never be able to. So what if he's any better, more handsome, richer and cracks funnier jokes? He may not even treat me right and most definitely will not understand me half as well as you do. It will not be what I want. You're what I want, the whole package. I don't want to just live in the present, I want to see us together in the future. There are just too many times, we could have walked away, when things seemed to be falling apart and when people easier to love came by. Have you ever asked yourself why it never once crossed our mind to stop staying around? Every time I find myself broken and rejected, I'd turn to you cause you're the only one who will build me up, tell me how precious I am and make me feel whole again. Being happy together is easy, but having it easy isn't. I don't mean it's effortless or it's difficult for us, I just mean it takes a lot. I guess nobody else will believe that I deserve so much love, besides you. Thank you for making the past 3 years the most amazing time in my life.

I found somebody who makes me feel I'm perfect, and that we're perfect together.
I love you so dearly ♥♥♥

Bigger than life

2011-06-10T14:05:00.003+08:00

Very busy these few days, have to clear my leave yet struggling with insufficient time for work. There's suddenly so much to do, and my report that's gonna be due soon isn't even completed. Never felt so busy in the entire stopover before, I'm usually so free I can tumblr all day long. Now I can only afford to joke around abit and then get back to work. :(
Slight pms, but mostly happy. My boy makes me smile so much. People I love the most loves him as well. I want to provide him with as much happiness and love that he has been showering me with these years. And no matter I am capable of doing that myself or not, I want to have the help of others. I want everybody who loves me to treat him right. I disapprove of whover who disapproves of him. Silly but true.

Great weekend ahead yahooooooooooooooo

Written in the stars

2011-06-07T10:51:00.002+08:00

Planning for my class's chalet/bbq just made me realise how busy I'll be for the following weekends of June.

For this Friday - Meeting Aga, Taf and Zt till midnight, I'll head over to meet my cousins!
This Saturday - Meeting Boen and going for a birthday celebration

Next Friday - Dad's birthday and my Anniversary!! (No idea which am I celebrating :( )
Next Saturday - Grandfather's birthday chalet
Next Sunday - May be staying over the chalet, or celebrating belated Anniversary.

Next next Friday - Cousin's wedding (?)
Next Saturday - Class BBQ.

Sundays are family days and are usually also reserved for Church.

I feel so sorry that everybody accomodated with my schedule and changed the date for the Class BBQ. :(

So many people are secretly competitive in here. And the worst part is that I don't think I'll be able to hit my quota, considering how little time we have and how late our database is going to arrive. Plus I have yet to cleared 2 days of leave. Sigh I doubt yall know what I'm talking about but I'm a teeny bit worried :(

I'm just wasting my time now, and this will be how it's like for the rest of today~
Tumblr all day again~

I'm always wondering

2011-06-02T14:19:00.004+08:00

Half of 2011 is gone and nothing much of significance happened.

I'm just hoping everything will be smooth sailing.

That I'll stop feeling what I hate myself for feeling for the past few months,

I'll make the best out of my time,

I'll keep my priorities right,

I'll stop letting my self worth be dependent on how people treat me.

And most importantly, for our 3rd Anniversary to be filled with love ♥

I realized that as we grow older, time is passing faster and faster. Does that mean that people who are meant to leave your life in time to come, will do so sooner?

Just a kiss

2011-06-01T10:53:00.002+08:00

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight

Supersonic

2011-05-31T03:21:00.000+08:00

I kept rereading my previous post, I think it's a super boring and dry post but it truly expresses how I feel. Blogging always makes me feel better. Though I still don't get how I can get so emotional haha..

Ok this post is supposed to be happy :)

FRIDAYYYYYYYEYEYE!

Met the P.Osh girls after such a long time! :( They predicted that I'd scream when I see them, but I exceeded their predictions. I gave them a big hug on top of the screams!

Dinner @ Medz! I didn't have any appetite so I only had desserts even though the food all look sooooo good :(

Headed to Neverland! My first visit. Celestine really wanted to give it a try so yeap! We were all feeling weird when we first stepped in, but the place really isn't as sleezy as I thought it would be. Not a bad place to chill :)

HAHAHA.

Stayed for only an hour or two. Cabbed down to Attica!

The place is flooded with Angmohs. All so tall and big it's hard to breathe. But it didn't kill the fun partying with them, #pros-of-being-the-youngest-in-the-group hehe. I think such nights wouldn't be complete if they didn't play the song 'Give Me Everything'.

Awesome night luv them~

Went over Bb's and fell asleep even though he isn't home yet. Slept our Saturday away, had late a sumptuous late lunch :)

One Altitude in the night with his friends. I almost dozed off watching the match between Man-Utd and Barcelona. I think it's quite exciting as compared to normal soccer matches la but still, not my thing!!

Level 63! Really beautiful :>

Made a few attempts to capture a proper picture but the lightings just didn't allow :(

Weekends flew past. Nowadays I don't dread school as much as I used to hiak hiak :>

Something about love

2011-05-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

Love can be so giving. It makes you willing to give up anything and everything, in return, you get all that belongs to your other half. But when love leaves, it takes everything away from you. All that you gained, sometimes even what you had initially. It takes a big part of you away, depending on how much you had sowed into the relationship. Your mind will be clouded with all the memories. Because memories are the only things that can never be taken away from you. You can choose to let it depress you even more, or chuck it to the back of your mind; until you're ready to embrace them and tell yourself "Yeah, great memories that I'll never forget, but too bad they can only remain as memories. I deserve to be with somebody that I'm meant to be with".

I don't know, it's just all the break ups happening around me lately that made me think. So much. It makes me sad, even though it's not occurring to me but it's really depressing. It's making me lose faith.. So what if everything used to be so perfect, so unbreakable? It can be gone in a moment or two. Feelings need no reason to fade, and love needs no warning to deplete. Yes it is cruel, but nobody is to blame. It's saddening for me, as an outsider, to imagine them without each other. They will never again say "Xxx told me.../ I just met xxx..." or even, seeing photos of them together. How much harder will it be for them? Somehow, their smiles will always hide a tinge of sadness, until their scars go away completely one day. Every single broken heart around me, affects me. I've no idea why, it just does. Silly me, nothing lasts forever.

Even if they know ultimately, they'll be better off apart, it doesn't hurt any less. There must be so much to say, so many questions to ask, yet there's no longer a point to. All the promises you haven't fufilled, all the places you said you'd visit together but did not, all the plans you've made together... I've been through a very horrible break up and I still hate the person that hurt me. For many months, I couldn't stop crying and unknowingly, it became my remedy. Everybody eventually got tired of cheering me up, I felt like I was alone in the fight of moving on. It's true. Even if your strongest isn't strong enough, you'll have to make do with it. I was taught that everytime your heart gets broken, it may recover but it'll never be the same again. Something in you changes.

K I should stop being so emotional. They say that Pisces babies can get affected by things around them, and when they do, it affects them deeply. Wish it doesn't apply to me but at the same time, I can't agree more to that statement.

My stomach is churning and I can feel the fever bug activating it's power in my body. Omg...

Perfectly good at it

2011-05-26T15:11:00.001+08:00

Photos are from last week :)

Bored to stiff in school, I can even blog everyday!! But then again, I have a feeling I'm gonna miss TEP when I move on to new semesters. There are no exams, no stress and we play so much more than we do work. Everyday, we will form our circle and chat about all the nonsense that are prolly beyond your imagination. We take 30-45 minutes break when it's only supposed to be 15 minutes. We have our own inside jokes. I entered the class thinking that I'm going to have a super hard time because everybody looks sucky. But now they're the ones who actually makes me feel like time is flying by.

Random thought. One plus point about me is that I'm over-appreciative about everything. But I'm also oversensitive. Okay maybe both are bad points.

I guess that's the reason why I tend to read too much into things and I'm almost super fickle minded. I think about things nobody else does. It may be easy to predict what move I'm gonna make next, but you can never really comprehend what's going on in my head.

I don't know if that's good, especially when I'm in a fight with Boen it's hard to get my message across. Sometimes I just keep quiet when I have no idea how to convert my thoughts into string of sentences. Oh well, but gotta admit he can understand me a whole lot better as compared to others! Pat on your shoulder! :)

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Gold forever

2011-05-25T10:51:00.000+08:00

Last weekend!

(Friday:)

@ Rebel last Friday with my bestfriends and Tbe's bestfriends :)

Normally I avoid tweeting/foursquaring/blogging about hitting a club when I do, because I find it very act.
But oh well... I suddenly think actually nothing much to act about what everybody can go if they want to.

On Saturday, Tbe brought me one of his campmate's BBQ. Didn't feel like joining in their Poker game that day so I just watched. I really think that I suck at gambling, all the time. I don't remember winning money everytime I gamble, except for a few really rare occassions in mahjong :( I hardly even break even :(

Left at 1130pm, went back to wash up before heading to town to meet the guys for Pirates of the Caribbean! :)

Show was great as expected but left the theatre with an aching neck. We sat at the first few rows :(

Sweechoon for supper/breakfast yay

Do you know what I went through to transfer the pix into this laopok computer and then upload them onto Photobucket and finally onto Blogger? No you don't I don't think anybody will understand unless their computer is like 10 years old!

Woohoo meeting Baby after school! Gonna have dinner with his family k byeee

'I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart'

2011-05-20T09:33:00.001+08:00

Baking at Rochygirl's!

I remember I used to go over her place at saraca drive almost every weekend to bake. We'll drink and feast on junkfood at her garden, on a few occasions we even danced to techno songs and took silly videos. It's been a longgg time!

I'm sure we're not the only ones who used to like Bacardi breezer/Hooch...

Smell of dough (y)

Cookies for me and Sweetheart's 35th mthsary :)

I'm srsly thankful for all the awesome weekends I've been having. Yay.

What if, we can be forever

2011-05-20T09:33:00.000+08:00

You love me the best you can, take me almost everywhere you go, dote on me like I'm all you have, take care of me to the best of your abilities, show everybody you're exceptionally in love, give in as much as you can, think of me all the time, spend everything on me (cept that I don't allow you to), keep no secrets from me, and I'm always included in your future and dreams.
I don't know what else can I possible ask for, besides for you to never stop feeling the same for me.

Lately, I've been paranoid. I've been insecured. I've been grumpy. I've been everything that you didn't have to put up with.

Still, you did. We were two people sunken in low spirits, trying to pretend that everything will eventually pass. I fought with my own emotions everyday, wondered so hard how can I be on track again.

It haven't been long, though. It has only been a few days since we genuinely felt happy. And I can barely put up with it. I guess it shows how much emptiness and void there will be if you're no longer in my life.

Last night, I sorted out my thoughts. Breakthrough is on the way and things will be good again before we even know it, I promise. I'm sorry for making you sad, I should never have doubted.. One thing for sure, I have never stopped trusting you. I was resenting the circumstances, not you. And now I know, that I should trust you above all of that too. You'll not give in to anything that will hurt me.

Can't wait to see you tonight xx.

Jar of hearts

2011-05-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

I just created a tumblr account because I realised with all the time I have to spend on the comp in school everyday, I really need some entertainment.

Here!

http://angiraffe.tumblr.com/

The photos are all so awesome I feel like stealing everything and put it up on my blogspot hahaha ikr such a betrayer.

But tumblr is gonna make me all gloomy sooner or later. The pretty girls make me inferior, yummy food makes me hungry, cute things make me jealous, pictures of Chuck and Blair make me really want them to be together in real life. Plus I wonder how they are like in real life.
So retarded haha.

Talking about school, things are actually looking up, besides the fact that I still feel tormented to see time crawl by as slowly, things are getting pretty comfy with my new classmates! Since the start of the term, I've been trying to look/sound as serious as I can (since it's a whole new group of new faces, I thought maybe I can wriggle out of the impression that I'm lame/weird/random/lost) But I realize that when I get comfy I'll be myself, so... Oh wells.
It's back to the same old situation whereby everybody laughs at my questions and they will ask where in the world do I think of such questions to ask...
Hey nonono, I don't think of questions to ask. They are questions because I really don't know the answer and I want to know it. I don't think it's silly and in short, I just cannot help it la.

I think if I'm not me, I wouldn't like me. Sigh~
Thank goodness I'm me, not not me. Hahahaha if you get what I mean.

♥

2011-05-07T14:57:00.001+08:00

I have always loved how strong you are. This time, there's a greater reason for you to be strong, but this time, it makes me afraid. You know I'll always stand by you, I've never left and I never will. You can break down a thousand times infront of me, and I'll still tell others how proud I am of you.

Only if you bother :)

2011-05-05T17:15:00.001+08:00

Pisces

Strength:
Compassionate
Adaptable
Accepting
Devoted
Imaginative

Weakness
Oversensitive
Indecisive
Self-pitying
Lazy
Escapist

Independence
Pisces needs a dominant partner of role model in their life or they will very easily fall into a pit of self-pity and self-undoing. When they are independent and inspired by life's events, their creativity comes shining through but they are unable to be on their own for long before they start dreaming in their imaginary world of happy people and happy endings. They need other people to keep them grounded and on the right track.

Friendship
Pisces will go out of their way to help a friend. They are extremely sensitive and loyal. They will take a friend's problem and make it their own and suffer with them. This is the weak spot of Pisces but any friend of this zodiac sign should know that although they are attracted to people with severe problems who desperately need help, this actually does more harm them good. Even though Pisces will offer to make everything right, do not allow them to take on all your problems because they will lose their identity in your situation. They need a strong positive friend to make them strong. Pisces like adventure, new situation and social events. A Pisces friend will always have something exciting in mind and it is a very fulfilling, long lasting friendship.

Temperament
The Pisces personality is hard to pin down, it is very mysterious and elusive. They have extreme compassion and they feel the pain of others. If something is wrong in the world that affects them, it affects them deeply, they take it to heart and feel extreme feelings regarding the matter. When they are happy, they are extremely happy and when they are sad, they are extremely depressed.

Deep Inside
Pisces have an intuitive and psychic ability more then any other zodiac signs. They trust their gut feelings and if they do not, they quickly learn to because they realize that their hunches are usually correct. Pisces downfall is their sensitivity and their inability to reject another person. They do not like rejection and they try to treat others the way they want to be treated so they will rarely say no to a person for fear of hurting their feelings. They will help another person with their problems and like to do so because making others feel good in turn makes them feel good. The inner conflict of Pisces is extremes of temperament and conflicting emotions.

In a Nutshell
Pisces have formidable intuitive ability. Most Pisces are somehow involved with occult or spiritualism. Pisces are very good at understanding people for they have the ability to delve into the psyche and see behind a person's motivations. Pisces are not the pushovers that they may seem, in fact they have strength of character and will stand up for what they believe in and and they can do hard work for something they believe in. They can be very lazy but only in matters that they do not care about. Pisces is the most sensitive of all zodiac signs.

My boyfriend's:

Aries

Strength
Independent
Generous
Optimistic
Enthusiastic
Courageous

Weakness
Moody
Short tempered
Self-involved
Impulsive
Impatient

Independence
Aries personalities are independent. Being the first of the zodiac signs, they venture out and are go-getters, often leading the way. Their upbeat and magnetic personality often entices others to follow their lead because Aries personalities bring excitement into others lives.

Friendship
Aries are good friends, they always look out for their friends with caring and generosity and will protect them should the need arise and encourage them with their natural optimism. If confronted, Aries can turn to be quite childish, they will fight back with their agressive nature and are known to have temper tantrums should they not get their way.

Business
If a business idea comes their way, they tend to plunge right in. Aries are more then willing to take a gamble and follow their dreams and goals. However, if success is not immediate, they tend to lose interest and give up easily. Aries are notorious for not finishing what they have begun. This is due to the low tolerance for boredom and lack of patience.

Temperament
They do not like to take orders from others and enjoy getting their way. They can get childish or moody should they be given orders that they do not like. Aries will tell a lie if it seems advantageous to do so. They are however, not very good liars and other people can usually see through them.

In a Nutshell
Aries tend to venture out into the world and leave impressions on others that they are exciting, vibrant and talkative. Aries tend to live adventurous lives and like to be the center of attention, but rightly so since they are natural, confident leaders. Aries are very impulsive and usually do not think before they act - or speak. Too often Aries will say whatever pops into their head and usually end up regretting it later!

Never take advantage of the Aries man because his short temper will turn into a fury of anger and he will leave and never look back. ( !!! This better not be true :'( )

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Deleted everything irrelevant or untrue, but 70% of the chunk is SO TRUE!

(sigh)

2011-05-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

Should I remove my tagboard?
It's so troublesome I've to log into my cbox everytime to delete the fake passerbys sigh..
I am temperamental, and I tweet unhappy things 65% of the time when I feel unhappy.
Friends will text me and ask if I'm okay, etc. I really appreciate it but I'm not tweeting so I'll get attention from them. In fact, it makes me feel uncomfortable because when they ask me what happened, I don't say the reason almost all the time.
I don't have secrets, it's just that I don't feel like it's right to bombard them with those issues of mine.
But of course, it makes me feel better to receive their text/tweet replies.

Going to be dismissed in a couple of minutes, gr888888.

Dopey

2011-05-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

I just had Macspicy and seaweed shaker fries for lunch yumyumz even though I regretted the burger.
Macs should copy KFC's Zinger, how to enjoy the food when the burger is so spicy!! :<

One of my favourite nails colours! I remember the princesses in Huan Zhu Ge Ge all have nails like that. Not obvious but visible enough to look classy. I don't mind paying for manicures because I suck so much at painting my nails. :(

Blow a kiss

2011-05-01T19:11:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOOO HAPPY MY MUM GOT RID OF THE DAMN ROUTER AND NOW I'VE GOT MY SPEEDY INTERNET BACK!!

Really super happy, I can now watch shows on Funshion freely and not wait forever for a youtube video to load!

And my blogskin is fixed!! Me luv my bestfriend Rochygirl<3

OK! So a couple of weeks back I visited a salon and got my hair coloured!

Proved to me once again that I should have just stuck to my black hair. Was quite determined to dye it black again but everybody told me to first let my hair rest and recover for a few weeks.

However, slowly I learnt to embrace it. I started to think that I look fine with brown hair so I'm not going to do anything to my hair for now. :)

Pictures!

(Alot of them contains nothing but my face hehe)

The guys bought this from Toys R us, looks super cool on the video but when we opened the packaging all of us literally went like -________-

Haha scam MAX.

This photo captured my hair colour the most accurately! But my nose like gone hahaha.

To my beloved boy:

I'll love you through time. Through it all when all others fail you I promise I'll be standing right here. I can't say I'll never disappoint, but I can assure you that you'll never be alone. However much this means to you, I'll do it.

Lately, the sweetness that we feel have to be fought for. We'd create a big hooha over nothing, and then realize how silly it is. But at the end of the day, I know that no change between us can be too great as long as our love remains the same.

I hope you understand that not everybody is as giving as you are, some people they take w/o seeing the need to give. Don't be hurt by it, gain from it. You learn something new about them, move on, and remember not to put in more than enough next time.

Pretty much love you more than words ♥
♥

Can't make this over

2011-04-29T09:38:00.000+08:00

I've got quite abit to blog about, with photos and everything but I'm just very sick of this blogskin.
I can't upload big/clear photos without having to scroll left and right!
Trust me when I say I find myself in this little space everyday but I'll always sign out without posting anything because I don't have the mood to update my blog. Need to get my skin fixed real soon!!

But today I need to ramble.

TGIF TGIF TGIF!

I can't get over the video on Strangers Again, I know this is damn retarded. I think about it everytime we get into an arguement etcetc. I'll ask myself "so are we in the midst of moving on to the next stage?" haha...
I asked him what stage does he think we're in and he said we used to be at Tolerance but we moved back up to Honeymoon. Ok sounds reasonable, they never say cannot move backwards right?

I always hate it when my words aren't acknowledged.. It's like when I say something and the other party ignores me and continues with his conversation with another person, I'll feel very pekchek.
It's so different when somebody takes the initiative to do something nice, and when he/she does it only after you bring it up. (This paragraph has not much link with the chunk below)

So anyway, I feel... uncared for lately.
I believe that the way you're loved by somebody is how the person wants to be loved back.
Like maybe for you, you allow me to do many things because you hope to get the same amount of freedom back. And for me, of course, I make sure I care about every detail in your life because my idea of a r/s is to always be showering each other with care and concern.
For example, if you were to tell me "sigh I feel so sad", I'll be anxious. I'll keep checking my phone for your text because I want to reply immediately to cheer you up and be there for you
Or if you tell me "i need to get a new pair of socks", I'll remind myself to remind you to get your socks the next time we meet up.
However, it's hard and it definitely takes time to change your perception of love according to one another's expectations.
Quarrels can make us understand each other more and bring us closer, but it can also show us our differences and draw us apart.

Last night, I slept sad to avoid a quarrel because I was afraid of getting the latter.